i love coffee prince(:

today i found myself in a knot of anger and frustration that made me realize how i work so hard and give so much of myself to relationships all in the hopes of being as loved in return.love,to be loved,i know.but i have become starkly aware that i am always caught in a void,stuck waiting like a fool,for my loved ones to just appreciate what i do for them and want to make me happy too.

for some i wait daily,like a little game i play to amuse myself.maybe today something new and delightful will show itself to me as i do my own thing,something a little bit different from the last time.

for some i wait over a period of time,between the times we see each other and we don't.maybe there'll be a really good reason to meet up,something great to do together after weeks and months living our own lives.

and for some i wait for years,lapsing in and out of closeness and hope,perhaps despair.maybe today will be the day i finally say something out of the ordinary,today i will learn something i've been waiting so long to hear about.

will you love me today? the next time we see each other? years later?

all i know is that i do my best to love you,like a gardener waters her plants in hopes that flowers will bloom,so that maybe one day i'll get some of that love back.