side note,ignore promptly

i cannot help but suspect that i exist in the smallest corner of your life,no matter how long i've been there,and no matter how i pour myself out over and over again my allocated space never gets any bigger.i live secluded on my little side,wondering what's going on at the rest of your party,who's invited,why i am not.i complain from time to time,saying you never share your stories the way i do,never tell me a thing despite all that i've told you.you'll hang your head in shame and accuse me of putting you in a spot,something friends shouldn't do.when the moon is blue you suddenly interrupt my usual ranting to thank me for never giving up on you,always persevering to be your friend,that i look great and i'm great and everything we are is great.in that moment i'm caught so way off guard it's like you've just ambushed me in mid-sentence with a mind-blowing kiss and i stumble over my determination never to fall in love with you.but of course,i possibly already am by then and even more possibly may have been for my entire teenage life.i love you.oh gosh.it's like an elizabeth bennet loves the annoying mr darcy experience.but suddenly i'm back in my isolation booth,and you're off romancing the rest of the world without a hint of recognition of me again.My word do i simply marvel at our everlasting love.