Sunday, January 13, 2008

a very private post


though I already know
today is still a fresh start for the 
future me and you
I will continue to glance your way and
practice saying your name 
even though you briefly turn to
return my greetings 
in my general direction

because you too, already know

Still I hold my tears and nod
with satisfaction
Today's attempt has not been 
wasted;
and every night the stars and moon
breathe away the day's deepest fears

tomorrow I'm ready to try again.

Perhaps I am pretending to forget
that I don't already know 
how our roads have parted long ago.
My smile holds no bitterness for you
My heart unable to tear away from you

wretched thing, I am

I gaze upon your face and wonder
how much more I have to wait
though I already know
a part of me still tries,
still won't let go

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