tell those in love to stop being dramatic

haven't been blogging since i've been sufficiently occupied watching gossip girl or reading.don't really know what to say either,for a fact.as i've said before,i'm still in flux.i'm caught in a transition period of waiting/wondering/wandering,and as darryl puts it,i've run dry.this emotional desert is to a certain,subtle extent draining and frustrating.it's left me unstable,thirsting and slightly delirious.i need a change of environment.maybe i should go on a retreat after the bangkok trip.something affordable,in cool weather,and relaxing.

i need to get my mind in the right place.i have to stop dreading my QET,stop dreading school,stop dreading things i don't enjoy very much.i want to get away from all this and pretend no one in the world exists except me and some nice kind people.

can think of a few people whom i'd be happy to have with me,and some people i will kinda gladly have nothing to do with for the next few weeks.maybe i'll start fasting every few days of the week.i think i need to retreat with God.

something i ought to be slightly proud of.

take a brief look at one of the few acknowledged pieces of writing i've ever done.nothing fantastic,but okay la.

anyway sorry about not blogging since forever,will update a bit more when i'm finally not reading the 6 books i borrowed from library or watching gossip girl.or any other movie.

just for the sake of repeating myself,i watched the devil wears prada (4 stars),sweeney todd (2.5 stars),the other boleyn girl (2.5 stars),get smart (4 stars,only because it was super funny),penelope (3.5 stars,should be 4 but loses 0.5 because abit sketchy).....last week.and 8 episodes of gossip girl on sunday (4 stars,pretty entertaining,if not a bit brainless).

kungfu panda tonight.

wanted is coming out on the 26th! cannot wait.

movies coming out that i want to watch:

1. wanted

2. the curious case of benjamin button

3. sisterhood of travelling pants 2

4. the house bunny

5. baby mama

and alot of other trailers my macbook frontrow has to offer.

the married guy i'm in love with.mr james mcavoy(:

hokkaido(:

beautiful seaside that smelt like lavender.

another shot.

one of many fake bears in hokkaido.

ooh,bear.

me in aeroplane.

my tai tai's night out in the kimono thingy.

mum and i during first very jap dinner.

and again.looking very fresh out of the hot spring.

look very stupid but the volcano behind me was cool.

another stupid shot with the volcano behind..

during some random toilet break in the middle of nowhere.

very proud of this wide-angle shot of lake toya,a crater lake.

poor morning attempt at posing with lake toya (since i look hideous),which i only realized was a crater lake about 24 hours after living in that hotel.

nice fireworks display that went on for half an hour on lake toya at night.beautifulllll.

one of the many stupid shots i just had to take in the kimono thingy we had to wear around.

see the waterfall behind me?

flowers at the sake brewery.

pretty bridge and scenery at the brewery.

beautiful scenery at one of our pitstops.sadly i only have one kungfu photo as my mum refused to indulge in my so-called attention-grabbing ways after this photo.

surprisingly pretty shot against the sky taken by mum.

nice flower garden (:

one of the old chocolate posters at the museum/factory.

chocolate ornament thingies.

fake horse-drawn carriage.

pinocchio.

nice comfy bed,my favourite.

atoneeeeement.love love love james mcavoy.

i look gross but it's a cool pic of the zebra crossing.

it's kungfu panda,which i really wanna watch!

tiny village for tiny person.

the people i went with,as well as my pretty psycho but very funny tour guides.

you can imagine how i actually tried to tear this out of the aeroplane's magazine but too many people were watching so i gave up.

i love the background but i think i look a bit crappy in this photo.

happy musical box museum (:

very cute frogs to show my brother.

Georgia, I'll be chasing you the rest of my life.

Georgia, you know that you've been on my mind
Georgia, we both learned to compromise
I'll be there for you
When everybody's coming unglued
I'll be there for you
I won't say you have to choose

I don't want to let you go
And I don't want to lose you slowly
I just want to let you know
That it's only just a little back and forth lately

- Georgia by Hanson

love love love the hanson brothers way more than i love the jonas brothers.and today i finished watching ALL coffee prince episodes finally and i am super in love with the series.i loved it thoroughly.watching the behind the scenes (director is a woman,whoots.) made me feel all nostalgic about not being able to go to mass comm and really experience such fun for myself,because i know how much fun and human bonding there is in the whole process of filming,directing,acting..amazing chemistry that always pops up on set that drives you to an inexplicable emotional high..gosh.i will be missing all that by not getting into mass comm.i so desperately WANT to do all that.but of course,education is education and i don't want to waste my parents' money doing something that may not get me anywhere,leaves me with not much choice of career and doesn't really get everyone's approval in the first place.all my dreams will have to wait.

oh my gosh filming is so damn fun i hope someone gives me a fun drama to film soon.for church or something. (: the last thing i did was the smash thing which was so long ago.but so fun and dramatic man haha.i think the actors had a great time,while i did all the stressing out and sniggering behind the camera.can't believe i'm saying this,but i wanna do another chook's house video!!

and now that reminds me..as long as my external hard drive remains dead,i will never be able to get my videos back to watch.though i think random people have copies of it.and some are on youtube.oh well.

must go add more songs to imeem playlist now.

oh and hokkaido was okay,ask me about it.