maybe i won't look back

my nerves have been getting the better of me these days.i'm a bundle of electric wires all knotted up and on the verge of a short circuit.the number of times i've found myself losing my patience and swearing under my breath has gone up this weekend.i've been very tired and not resting my aching muscles but heck,what excuse is that for undone homework and chalked up sins?

the clock will strike 11 and my homework will still be untouched.i will still be fighting sleep.i will still be unprepared for the reality i need to face that next week is the start of the 8 week countdown to prelims.

i can feel a nasty word rising.

for the past 6 hours iv felt like crap.completely wiped out.jaded.whatever you want to call it.laziness?

i think i'm going to cry.

hurry tell me to give you up,
so i can give you up.