a trip up the course of the river

pretty much annoyed because i have yet to make it above 50 for maths.worse still,i dropped back to my lowest and original score (last year's midyears!) 41.second time i'm failing it but i can't say this years midyear paper was any easier from last year's.despite hitting around the class average 06a14 is after all,still an arts class and that makes us at least 10 marks below the science cohort average,which i heard was around 50 for some classes.but of course,there are geniuses like aaron cheong who make it to 60 sth (i think that's a personal low,however),and the mad scholars who hit 80-90.

oh crumbs.i feel like whatever i say now like "oh no i'm doomed for As!" will vaguely resemble a woman in a fast burning-down house on fire screaming calamity yet doing nothing at all.

i must instead,be inspired for maths! this calls for Plan B,which sounds a lot like "well then,mug harder".thank God for semi-superlatives,or whatever the "-er,-est" things are. (i.e. hard,harder,hardest) means i have hope,as long as i have not reached the end of my stick yet. (is that even an expression?)

whatever the case,i'm going to stay calm and go annotate my lit poem and drama now.

oh and i have to blog about this because i think it was the sweetest thing iv heard all week (and possibly in my life,more or less).i don't think the person would want to be named but you can just ask me if you so desperately want to know because you're so incredibly nosey,let's say if you were esmond loon.

ME:
don't get me started
i totally do not believe girls can go after guys
i still don't you noe.
i think ur weird methods wld only get girls into trouble!

HIM:
fine
i admit i haf no idea how it'll turn out

ME:
precisely !
i knew it was all just crap la

HIM:
no but i tell u
it works lor

ME:
u just said
u have no idea how' it'll turn out!

HIM:
for u maybe
not everyone can do it at the same level

ME:
ur saying that
THAT method will work for me?!?!
since when did u noe how i function
i have zero effect on guys la

HIM:
isit
how wld u noe

ME:
im pretty sure
like ZERO.
no one will give it a second thought.

HIM:
u nvr noe

ME:
what i never know
i do noe.
it makes me sad to think abt it
i don't know whether to be comforted by that however.haha

HIM:
??
i dont get u

ME:
as in,if i have zero effect on guys then i wun get like hounded or sth
sexual harassment

HIM:
i tot u do get hounded

ME:
no i do not!
why wld i get hounded ****.
because im pretty!?
tt wld be a first.

HIM:
u are wad
u look great in all ur fotos n stuff
doesnt that tell u something

and then i was so stunned i couldn't think of what to reply for a few minutes.so i said..
(what i now consider a terrible reply)

ME:
erm
if u were a girl i wld give u a biggggg hug.
that's so sweet ****.
i thot u were gg to take the opportunity to make fun of me

i mean seriously.i need things like THIS to happen to me more often and from someone else other than HIM.but thanks,you know who you are,that meant a lot to poor little insignificant me.okay bye.

p/s REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!