the desperate say shit

while steph says coffee,i have to stop saying shit.maybe it's ms low's influence from today's shit-hurry-shit-hurry lit tutorial,which reflects the mounting anxiety everyone is feeling as prelims draw nearer,and nearer,and nearer - shit.

it's impossible not to get my drift.how about a list of words to help explain the convection currents churning in my heart? fatalistic,panicky,uber-stressed,exhausted,perplexed,pessimistic,miserable,inconsolable,erratic,numbed,desperate.

it's so hard,it's so taxing.it's so demanding.

please,

joanneee/life in monosyllable. says:
i'm.............

help me.