sunkissed,i mean frenched

despite the thunderstorm predicted, aw, me and steph(:

ben:)

thanks to our little suntan spree this morning to afternoon,steph and i,are possibly the most burnt people in class.although im in more pain because im usually as white as a ghost and steph's already black.i look like some overcooked thing.

okay my brother has just said goodnight,pink freak.so much for kinship.

then we were watching this really sad korean show moment to remember and i felt like crying a second time,really.it was so moving.it inspires you to do many things - do such a great screenplay and film it,be able to act as convincingly as the two hot leads (maybe without being hot),aspire to have such a great love story (which however had better not involve having alzheimer's) and perhaps lastly to cherish moments to remember so that they become a part of you,never to be taken away.did i mention how hot jung woo sung is.even steph was won over by the middle of the movie.

we spent a good deal of time talking about the most intimate issues of our hearts today,steph and i.im glad i didn't get emo halfway or sth and start crying,but instead i was encouraged and reminded of how much God loves me,despite what im seen as,despite everything i may seem to be and don't want to be.i thought the most interesting discovery about the differences steph and i have,even in our numerous similarities,would be that her autobiography would make people laugh with the lack of severity she views her life with,while mine would make people cry because of the intensity of unhappiness i leave concealed from the world.zwing would shake her head at this.

anyway having no exams for now does leave time for me to just sit back,relax and be emotional all i want.think about this and that,feel empowered by God's promises in a spiritual high,then sink to the depths of hopelessness as optimism drains away the more i gaze in your direction and the more perfect you become against all that i am and have to give.

i'm dying to say the words
but i don't think you'll know the difference
between both my lie and truth
all spelt i-l-o-v-e-y-o-u

because the you has changed.

i am so annoyingly cheesy,seriously.