"..it's like i dropped all notion of love,submission,gentility,care...when i lost
him.he didn't define me,but he definitely was a big part of me.and it's a huge part i have learnt to live without,albeit in a very dysfunctional and tragic manner.im a hazard to myself.
louis is like an alcohol.a drug.sth that drowns the loss i felt that day.sth to help me forget the pain i had to live thru trying to handle
him.and im horribly addicted even though
he is back and we're good and normal.
God........im so sorry."
(taken from the secret blog)I will always remember that Saturday, 2 weeks after our whirlwind friendship ended so abruptly. 2 weeks after I hung up. I stood there in God's arms and cried my whole broken heart out.
I did love him, so so much.
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